There
is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear
involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. - 1 John 4:18
I have been fearing a lot lately because I had a negative experience that I do not want to go through again. If I was heading a road that I know will give the same painful experience, would I really want to go through that same road again? What if there was no other way to pass by but through that exact same road? Then I really don't have a choice but to go through that road again. Fearing for that same pain. But somehow pain is buried deep down in a person's memory more than any happy memories could ever be implanted in the human brain. Thus being fearful of the same pain called a Trauma is where you don't even know you will be in that same pain again, you just become more worried that it will torment you that same pain again if you pass by that same old road.
I realized that a lot of my fears today has got something to do with not trusting GOD enough to take care of me and GOD allowing me to be in pain in the past. If I know that GOD loves me then I should not be in pain but I'm not most certainly correct. Being in this world we are prone and susceptible to pain and suffering because this is a fallen world. But I cannot live in fear all my life and I have to step out somehow and face those fears. Even in pain, I know that GOD's love has not ceased for me. GOD allows pain but only for a greater cause. In the many stories in the Bible GOD has caused so much pain to those who chose to follow HIM but their end was always full of glory and their lives are of Honor and Courage. To persevere is to trust GOD in fear and to take courage. Courage is not the absence of fear but the ability to act in the presence of fear. Fear can paralyze us and manipulate us to hide away in our safe zone if we let it take hold of us. To hide away from pain will only cause us to be shielded and even more sensitive but it will not make us as strong as Titanium. I wish I was Titanium as the song goes "I'm bullet proof nothing to loose, fire away, fire away you shoot me down but I won't fall I am Titanium..." and until then, I will gather the courage not to hide away anymore. For I trust that all those who belong to GOD will be honored in the end.
I have been fearing a lot lately because I had a negative experience that I do not want to go through again. If I was heading a road that I know will give the same painful experience, would I really want to go through that same road again? What if there was no other way to pass by but through that exact same road? Then I really don't have a choice but to go through that road again. Fearing for that same pain. But somehow pain is buried deep down in a person's memory more than any happy memories could ever be implanted in the human brain. Thus being fearful of the same pain called a Trauma is where you don't even know you will be in that same pain again, you just become more worried that it will torment you that same pain again if you pass by that same old road.
I realized that a lot of my fears today has got something to do with not trusting GOD enough to take care of me and GOD allowing me to be in pain in the past. If I know that GOD loves me then I should not be in pain but I'm not most certainly correct. Being in this world we are prone and susceptible to pain and suffering because this is a fallen world. But I cannot live in fear all my life and I have to step out somehow and face those fears. Even in pain, I know that GOD's love has not ceased for me. GOD allows pain but only for a greater cause. In the many stories in the Bible GOD has caused so much pain to those who chose to follow HIM but their end was always full of glory and their lives are of Honor and Courage. To persevere is to trust GOD in fear and to take courage. Courage is not the absence of fear but the ability to act in the presence of fear. Fear can paralyze us and manipulate us to hide away in our safe zone if we let it take hold of us. To hide away from pain will only cause us to be shielded and even more sensitive but it will not make us as strong as Titanium. I wish I was Titanium as the song goes "I'm bullet proof nothing to loose, fire away, fire away you shoot me down but I won't fall I am Titanium..." and until then, I will gather the courage not to hide away anymore. For I trust that all those who belong to GOD will be honored in the end.
